It's mothers day

There are so many people I want to recognize today, and am gonna try and include as many of you as I can. However if I forget you I am sorry, know these words are for you. Even if you aren't mentioned or pictured.
I may not be a mom myself, but for as long as I can remember there have been women in my life teaching what it means to be a mother. Some of those things I've been taught are the following:

• Love
• Courage
• Strength 
• Never giving up
• Fight for important things
• Protecting your family
• Protecting your beliefs
• How to balance life
• To have a testimony
• To find the hope
• To love literature 
• The importance of education 

I am so grateful for the love, and comfort that these women have given to me. The countless prayers, and good thoughts sent my way. You are all wonderful, and so loved. Not just by me but those around you. Be strong, and continue to love. Know that you have blessed me beyond belief.
You are also strong and noble women, and God is smiling on you. 

This is just a small list. Some people that won't be pictured I want to list here

• Nanners 
• Laura
• Georgie
• Janille 
• Meryni
• Gina 
• My grandmas

If there's one thing my dad taught me.

My parents have taught me many important things. So many lessons I wouldn't know where to start. However there is one thing my dad taught me that I will never forget, you see a solider you say thank you. No matter what you are doing you stop and say thank you. If they are talking you wait until they are done, and you say thank you. As cheesy as it sounds I am proud to be an American. 

I support my troops, and I say thank you. 

"To the Beat of My Heart"

Instead of writing my part two of three I thought I would share something else. I am still working on part two, and can't wait to share my story with all of you. However this week I want to share something else with you. Music is a huge part of my life, and this past summer I really learned the importance of why we pay for our music. The people who chose the career of a musician in my opinion chose a hard path. Musician's work hard for what they love, so we can have the things we love. It is important to support the music industry, and show those musicians that we support them. My cousin Bubba taught me the importance of buying music, and not getting it other ways. So I thought I would give you a list of all the songs I've purchased, and the careers I am supporting.
Starting in July of 2015 until today:

1. Ew!- Jimmy Fallon ft. Will.I.Am
2. Honey, I'm Good.-Andy Grammer
3. Watch Me (Whip/Nae Nae)- Silento
4. Pretty Girls Britney Spears ft Iggy Azalea
5. Immortals- Fall Out Boy
6. Play It Again- Luke Bryan
7. Country Girl- DF Dub
8. Hey Mama- David Guetta
9. Cheerleader- OMI
10. Drag Me Down- One Direction
11. My Way- Fetty Wap ft. Monty
12. Uma Thurman- Fall Out Boy
13. That's How You Know- Nico Vinz
14. Only Fooling Myself- Kate Voegele
15. Marvin Gaye- Charlie Puth Ft. Meghan Trainor
16. I Won't-Colbie Caillat
17. Touch the Sky-Julie Fowlis
18. Into the Open Air- Julie Fowlis
19. Learn Me Right- Birdy & Mumford and Sons
20. Made In the AM(album)- One Direction
21. Hotline Bling-Drake
22. Cars that Go Boom L'Trimm
23. El Taxi- Pitbull 
24. Dessert- Dawin
25. 679- Fetty Wap ft. Monty
26. Santa Claus is Coming to Town- Micheal Buble
27. Talking Body- Tov Lo
28. Here Comes the Lion Guard- Beau Black
29. The Moment I Knew- Taylor Swift
30. Stand Still, Look Pretty- The Wreckers
31. No Scrubs- TLC
32. Get Ugly- Jason Derulo
    
    I budget money for music just like budget money for gas. I know that if there is a song I want, I want to have it at my disposal. I want to listen to it on repeat ad free for five hours straight. This might seem like a lot of music but it's apart of my life. I want to support the music industry just like I am supported in my careers. i encourage you to do the same.
    
    
    
    
    "So I say Thank You for the Music"-Abba

An old year ends, and a new year begins

Let us first look back on year 2015, what a wonderful year. I experienced everything pretty much. Here is 15 things that happened in 2015

1. I moved to Idaho
2. I spent time with family in Utah,
3. I made new friends 
4. I started a new school
5. I bought my fifth laptop charger this year :) I have the worst luck, one caught fire.
6. I turned 22
7. I learned I was gonna be an aunt again
8. I got my first big kid purse
9. I got promoted at work Santa's Assistant Manager :)
10. I started a new book
11. I lost someone close to me
12. I enjoyed lots of new music that came out
13. I stepped up in the iphone game, and got an ipad
14. I started taking control of my happiness
15. I know that the gospel is where I find my happiness

This year has truly been amazing, I have learned so much about myself. I feel like I have grown in ways I didn't even know were possible. Shout out to my sisters who constantly keep me in check, and remind me to fight for the things I love. Shout out to all the kiddos in  my life, whether I am their nanny, or their Jordy. Shout out to new friends I made this, especially Becky, Jenna, and new work friends. Shout out to my old friends too who make time to be apart of my crazy life. Special shout out to the Smith family who adopted me for two weeks this summer (yes that includes Jenni's kids) :) And to my parents who only want the best for me. I can't wait for the new year. I just know even better things are waiting for me in 2016, I just have to chase after them. I will keep you posted. As for now, know I am having the time of my life with the people I need the most. 

What it feels like to turn twenty-two!

On the eve of my twenty-second birthday I wanted to share my thoughts with you. Never have I ever felt older when my birthday has come. However this year was different. Even though it wasn't my birthday yet as soon as October first hit, I felt older. I felt twenty-two. What does it mean to feel twenty-two you ask? My feelings are this:
I am on the brink of having the best year of my life. I have this optimistic feeling rushing through my body. It's telling me that I have wonderful things coming to me. One of my new favorite songs called This'll Be My Year By Train says " No more countin' down the hours... Before I call it a day, Maybe this will be my year" I am nowhere near figuring out this thing called adulthood. But I know that tonight? It's a perfect night to dress up like hipsters, and have breakfast at midnight.

Not All Wounds are Visible: My Battle with Anxiety.

Before I realize what it is
the poison hits my heart.

This dark poison accelerates my beats per minute

The pounding hits my head.

I question what is happening,

and then it spreads.

The poison spreads to my body.

It hits my brain, and I rethink everything I've done.

I must have done something wrong.

I messed up sometime today.

Did I say the wrong thing?

Did I do the wrong thing?

I must have upset someone.

I try to remember the cures 

Listen to music

Breathe deeply

Go to your happy place.

The poison still spreads

The worry has overtaken me now.

I sit with my heart racing

Looking for answers

Where did I mess up?

Where is my mistake. 

It hurts, everything hurts.

This poison, this battle.

This anxiety.

I must stop it

I must go on

I must keep fighting.

This battle of mine?

I will win.

Don't eat raw cookie dough, you wouldn't want to go catching salmonella.

How many times when were kids did we hear an adult say "Don't eat the cookie dough. You could get salmonella and die." I personally heard it millions of times I feel like, and I never thought I would be the one to get salmonella poisoning. Before we start with my two weeks from the living dead let me clarify I didn't get salmonella from cookie dough. The verdict is still out on where I contracted my poison from.
It all started Friday August 14, I started to have vertigo spells, and I couldn't quite control my body temperature. Over the next three days things went from worse to terrible. I started to have major stomach cramps, running to the bathroom every 15 minutes, a migraine, body chills, body sweats, and pain from head to toe. My days were packed with naps, hot baths, and air conditioning. I would be freezing, and the only way to warm up would be a bath, then I would be hot and would have to sit in front of the air conditioner.
By Monday I was convinced that I was dying, I went to my mom crying and asked her if she could take me to the walk in clinic because my doctor was full, and I couldn't drive. I went we waited for about an hour and half only to be told I had a gastric virus and I should go vegan to help with my weight because that is where the pain was coming from. Monday night I started to have heart palpitations, and a migraine that only got worse. I was taking imodium, 1000mg of tylenol, 800mg of ibuprofen, and two benadryl (the miracle cocktail) to try and kick my migraine no such luck.
On Wednesday my mom had some errands to run, and I always like to go with her because it means I get to spend time with her. I grabbed my book, my blanket and got in the car. The first place we went was her foot doctor so she could drop some shoes off. I stayed in the car, I was freezing and I liked the warm sensation from the leather, and the hot windows on my hands. By the time we got to the dentist for her she told me I had to go in because I looked awful. Her dentist took my temperature and it was 103. I tried to schedule an appointment with my doctor but once again full. So my sister Alex picked me up, and dropped me off at the walk in clinic. Saw a different doctor who took a urine sample, and wanted a stool sample. He said I wasn't dehydrated just had a virus that my body was taking a long time to fight. He prescribed norco for the migraine, and sent me home.
Wednesday around 2 am I was losing it convinced I was dying, my mom thought I had meningitis because my neck had started to ache. Off we went to the ER where they gave me something that finally got rid of my headache, and a bag a fluids because I was indeed dehydrated.
On Thursday they got the results from my stool sample, and on Saturday a nurse called to inform me that I have salmonella. It took a whole week to find out that I have salmonella. Sorry this story took so long, but now I am healing. I am on antibiotics, and I am getting some much needed R&R in Northern Cali. I finally don't have a fever any more. I still am tired, and my body just feels angry. But the important things that we finally figured out what was wrong. Please be careful out there. Salmonella is painful, and awful. Heres a link for more info on the poison that destroyed me. And it is also highly contagious! So wash your hands, don't eat raw chicken, and wash your hands.
http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/salmonella/basics/definition/con-20029017