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Thursday, October 29, 2015

What it feels like to turn twenty-two!

On the eve of my twenty-second birthday I wanted to share my thoughts with you. Never have I ever felt older when my birthday has come. However this year was different. Even though it wasn't my birthday yet as soon as October first hit, I felt older. I felt twenty-two. What does it mean to feel twenty-two you ask? My feelings are this:
I am on the brink of having the best year of my life. I have this optimistic feeling rushing through my body. It's telling me that I have wonderful things coming to me. One of my new favorite songs called This'll Be My Year By Train says " No more countin' down the hours... Before I call it a day, Maybe this will be my year" I am nowhere near figuring out this thing called adulthood. But I know that tonight? It's a perfect night to dress up like hipsters, and have breakfast at midnight.

Thursday, October 1, 2015

Not All Wounds are Visible: My Battle with Anxiety.

Before I realize what it is
the poison hits my heart.

This dark poison accelerates my beats per minute
The pounding hits my head.

I question what is happening,
and then it spreads.
The poison spreads to my body.
It hits my brain, and I rethink everything I've done.

I must have done something wrong.
I messed up sometime today.
Did I say the wrong thing?
Did I do the wrong thing?
I must have upset someone.

I try to remember the cures 
Listen to music
Breathe deeply
Go to your happy place.

The poison still spreads
The worry has overtaken me now.
I sit with my heart racing
Looking for answers

Where did I mess up?
Where is my mistake. 
It hurts, everything hurts.

This poison, this battle.
This anxiety.

I must stop it
I must go on
I must keep fighting.

This battle of mine?
I will win.