Commitment, it’s a big step.

Phew, I did it. I actually committed. I didn’t think I was going to be able to after looking, and looking for what I wanted and not being successful in finding it. Here’s the thing, even when I was like this is it, we’re going for it. I will admit I wasn’t in love with it. As soon as I slid my card and finally purchased my sheets, I could picture myself coming back and returning the sheets. Cause I wasn’t in love with them. I had a pink and green image in my head, and these didn’t fit into my plan. I wanted to make a decision, I had gone to at least three different stores. Held numerous amounts of sheets in my hands, some felt right but didn’t look right, and some looked right but didn’t feel right. Well little did I know that the next day I would find a blanket that fit into my dream, and it went perfectly with my sheets. Moral of this story is target doesn’t carry queen sheets in the kids section, and this queen needs queen sheets. Also sometimes you can’t see how something fits so perfectly into your life when it comes into your life but it does. This was a big decision, but I did it.

Woah did you see that 2018? We did it.

I have been dragging my feet so much at writing my end of the year blogpost because so much has happened it’s crazy. The start of 2018 was so rough for me, I battled depression, people giving up on me, me wanting to give up on myself, and so much heartache. But I found people who did support me, and wanted me to succeed. A new set of cheerleaders, and a safe place to call home while I struggled during those early months of 2018. After I graduated college, everything changed, and 2018 became an incredible year for this girl. Let’s look at the top 18 of 2018

1. I learned it’s okay not to be okay
2. Did lots of jumping jacks 
3. Relearned what I love about myself
4. Lost the friends I needed losing, found others on the way
5. San Fransico trip!
6. Graduation 
7. All my favorites having babies 
8. A week in the hospital 
9. A big kid job! 
10. A trip to Disneyland with my bestie
11. A falltober with my family
12. A cutie or two
13. A trip to Vegas 
14. Lots of singing
15. Lots of dancing 
16. A Christmas with santa 
17. Cancer free
18. Went back to the gym

I got pretty spoiled this year. I’ll post more someday. The biggest lesson I learned in 2018 was loving myself again, and it took lots and lots of self care and self love. I think we’re getting somewhere